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Steven Mills
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Shit Magnet (Event, #33.3, April 2005)
# "Don't
listen to him," Jas says above the wail of the ambulance siren as she pulls
out to pass a line of cars. "He's so full of shit, his eyes are
brown." The
sun is bright and hard, pavement dry, given that it's June.
It's just after oh-eight-hundred. The
latest newbie, Ritchie somebody-or-other, laughs a nervous little laugh.
He's doing his five attending calls with me and Jas looking over his
shoulder. Five supervised calls,
that's it, and then they let the poor son-of-a-bitch loose on the public. We're going out to a head-on, supposedly logging-truck-versus-car, but, truth be told, you never really know 'til you get there. That's what I tell Ritchie, who is in the jump seat in the back, leaning forward through the gap in the bulkhead. "So don't get your hopes up," I say and laugh, even though I know he's scared. The Postmodern Man (subTerrain, #39 [Volume 4, no. 39] 2004)
We swing out of the Ayr suburbs onto Northumberland Road, heading north into Kitchener. I rattle through the CDs looking for The Wiggles, which I’ve bargained to escape another round of “Jesus Loves Me.” Isaac is still crying. I almost drive through a stop sign. I can’t seem to concentrate. We talked until one in the morning, Emma jagged as if on caffeine, bouncing on the bed, her silk aubergine nightie flouncing up over her freckled thighs, her eyes crisp and laughing. She’s been offered a job in New York, writing software for one of the big brokerage firms, and she wants it, badly. They came looking for her, and hell, she alone can make more money than the two of us together make now. We can live in New Jersey, and she can commute. And, of course, she added, grinning and grinning, you can always dig up a decent-paying tech job just about anywhere. It’s true, I can be bored out of my mind just about anywhere. I’m the proverbial frog sitting in the pot of water, slowly being boiled alive because it adjusts and adapts to each rise in temperature without perceiving the ultimate, and immanent, danger.That Was the Night He Got Lost (TickleAce, Issue #39, Spring 2001)
The night was close, the clouds so low he could have grabbed them with his handknitted mittens, which were too big and sloppy for his small hands—he was only five. He didn’t usually get to go outside at night but tonight his parents wanted to play cards and drink with their friends. He crawled over white-blanketed logs, slogged through the knee-deep snow, retraced yet another set of bootprints. Then he found himself back at the same log and so he sat down to wait. If you are lost, wait for help to come. He called out, startling the snowflakes, making them fall harder with his growing fear. He sat with his back to the log, snowsuited knees tucked up, wondering how long it would be before they came looking for him. And he thought about them. They would be sitting at the kitchen table, not the one for company in the dining room, but the white-topped one in the grand white kitchen, with the blue geese with bright bows wallpapered in a strip near the ceiling, and the woodbrown cupboards with their pale blue plastic handles. They would be smoking a lot of cigarettes, and laughing very loudly, and swearing. “Holy shit, look at that! A goddamn red canasta. Read ’em and weep, ladies.” He could read the names written on the bottles and cans. Vodka. Rum. Molson. Ice Beer. And he didn’t even go to school yet. G is for Gargoyle (On Spec, Fall 1999)
“It’s three hundred bucks,” I said, protesting, but sounding much too gosh-darn-what-a-deal-for-me. “A garden-warming present,” she said, sliding her MasterCard across the counter at Carlotta’s, “since it doesn’t look like you’ll ever get the house finished enough for a housewarming gift.” I grinned. I had been fending off gifts of ceramic garden gnomes and earthy goddesses ever since I began building the garden. Garth is molded concrete, dyed a flat dirty green, and weighs about sixty-five pounds. I lugged him out to the truck myself, and held him on my lap all the way home. Like a kid with a new puppy. I admired his round scales, and the neat way his wings tucked tightly into his back, making them almost invisible. I put Garth out in the sitting garden at the side of the house, on the centre rise that overlooks the koi pond. Prominent, but a little hidden by the geraniums, so visitors would have to steal a second look to confirm that they hadn’t simply imagined seeing something peculiar. The next morning, as I puttered around the garden, watering and picking off dead blooms, and Julia drank her morning coffee at the wrought iron garden table, I talked to Garth, tickled him under his beaked chin, stroked his upright ears. “Jesus, Lee,” Julia said, looking up from the murder mystery she was reading, “you don’t pay that much attention to the cat.” “It’s important to treat gargoyles with extra kindness,” I said. “They’re very sensitive creatures.” "And cats aren't?" “Of course they are. You see, gargoyles and cats actually evolved from the same ancestor. With gargoyles, some serious mutating took place early on.” Julia was ignoring me now, so I continued. “But in their hearts, gargoyles and cats aren’t all that different. Gargoyles are known to be more loyal than cats, though, and more protective. Which makes them prime companions. Perfect familiars.” Julia refilled her mug from the white carafe and returned to her murder mystery. “And besides,” I added. “It’s common knowledge that gargoyles are the best thing for keeping deer out of your garden.” “In your twisted world, maybe,” Julia said. “You like my twisted world. You said so yourself.” “I lied.” She stuck her tongue out at me. Chasing the Dragon on the Sea of Tranquility (On Spec, Summer 1998)
Okay, very drunk. I never drink when I’m on standby. Never. Never before anyway. My wife and I had just split up the night before and I was feeling like crap. She wanted my stuff out of the flat in forty-eight hours or she’d huck it all into the airlock and I could goddamn well pick it up off two hectares of moonscape. So I got myself good and pissed. Started shooting tequila at BJ’s with some of the crew who’d been out at the substation when I was there. Roger and Donna and Kwan and that Quebecois hard-ass, what’s his name? Guy. Told war stories and drank ’til I couldn’t stand up. Jesus. Hard to believe I’ve been here four years now. The scenery's the shits, but the pay is great, and quite frankly, the rush is even better.
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